Wakeful Nights

Something's going on internally and I don't know what. I wake way too early with my jaw hurting from clenching.  I spend the day in a fog that doesn't clear until mid afternoon often feeling like I'm in another room distant from reality. 

One 4:30 am 'wakeup' I decide to change my attitude and see this as an opportunity instead of bemoaning the lack of sleep and the effects it'll have on my day.  As I lay there waves of euphoria wash over me and I feel so lucky to live the life I live.

I figure since I'm awake anyway I may as well meditate, even though it's challenging to do so lying down. I don't want to risk getting up in case that illusive sleep state returns to envelope me....in case.

An hour of meditation passes. Darkness, slowly melting, reveals the outline of trees and plants outside my window.  And then accompanying the emerging light, new ideas expose themselves. 

Bodhi Leaf with Dangles

I 'see' a double helix in the form of a dragons with a Kuan Yin emerging out of them. I tap out the idea on my bedside iPod.  About fifteen minutes later I see our Bodhi leaf earrings now with dangling beads inside. Again the iPod receives the idea.

Maybe staying awake isn't so bad after all!  Maybe the attitude change freed up some energy, formerly held hostage by resistance, to allow creativity to spring forth.

A few days later, with the use of Photoshop and my office manager,  I quickly get the new design ready for our carvers. I can't wait to make a pair for myself!